3 Ds - Depressed, Disappointed, Disheartened

A "minor" incident happened between me n a faction mate.

This have to relate to the day we won WOF (War of Faction). Boss was given ABS (Adelina Booty Search) code for all faction mate. Last week he need to go outstation at Shanghai and i offer to help him distribute the ABS. One set of numbers consist of 10 searches, so each member will be given 5 sets of numbers. And distributing through msn by copy n paste from the file is the more effective way then typing a string of numbers in Personal Message (pm) to everyone.

So i start to distribute to members. And this member A who always appeared at the time when i'm busy or not onine (he's from different Time Zone). Since he use Yahoo Messenger instead of MSN i downloaded YM so that i can pass to those members without msn the code. (Although msn n yahoo merged but some features cannot be used) To make things easier, i send him an offline message with the code only to know that he did not received it. And in the process of ding-dong here n there, i "delayed" in giving him what was his.

Whenever he saw me online he will ask when he can claim for his ABS. So to prevent him from "bugging" me, i go to my another pc to log in to YM to pass him the code. After giving him the code, he did not reply me. i just want to be double sure that he get it so i buzz him. He did not answer me directly but ask how to top-up. i know he got d code, i feel that at least he had a courtesy to tell me that he did instead of getting on my nerves so i juz say BYE n logout fr YM.

Back in-game, he say in a sarcastic way about hw i handle "simple" things n getting worked up so easily. he say i "was hard to deal with" and this is not the game i should be playing. After tat he start to speak in his language at faction chat and mentioned tat everyone was busy raiding so he can say wat he want. i was very upset. i just dun wan to comment on what he say. "just in case" people say i emo queen or "is tat time of the month".

I juz felt that everyone (erm.. not everyone... at least someone bothers) took things for granted and did not appreciate what you did for them. I know some of them said i was always emo, everyday pms mood, stressed for nothing. And u guys juz dunno me.. i dun expect u to anyway. i care more about friends then the game, if not i won't be a leader with noobs characters. Since i'm not capable of juggling duties as a Deputy Leader (DL) i stepped down from tat post to make rooms for the next better players. I told one of the members, i can always "promote" to DL again. And i dun mind if what i did was "up to pile" and then i will resumed my duties.